Thanks for checking in, LH. I am slowly working on getting adjusted to my new lifestyle over the past few months. It is a tough adjustment with the financial strain from the D and juggling taking care of work, the home and kids as a single parent but on the positive side GAL pretty much takes care of itself. It is also good not having to deal with the tension and uncertainty. exW is still in her dreamworld of a better life without me and I am unfortunately financing her dream for another 3 years. It was a tough decision to give her the settlement I did but I felt keeping the D amicable was more important than fighting over money - though I may regret it when I run out of money paying her smile. Eventually this gravy train will stop and it is only then that she will face the real consequences of her decision. I am still keeping the door open for now but don't know for how long I can keep it up, let's see. For now, I am trying to live my life one day at a time. Part of it is I have been so busy that I don't have time to think beyond the present, which is a blessing in it's own twisted way!