However, the end result years later might just be the same. Sometimes we have to let go of control and let things unfold naturally. I know I do.
Maybe it's natural for you to be putting so much energy and effort? I'm not sure but I wonder which is true, or both, or neither?
I'm glad that spark pops up and brings you close. I imagine that feels good when it comes. I know what it feels like when you flip back and get mean. It's basically showing all your pain that you still have. The basic things are hard to communicate I think. Saying "I'm mad", knowing exactly why, and being able to articulate it is a lot harder than it sounds like for most people. I think we choose the smooth path, and then choose it again, and again in all these small areas, thinking that it's ok just this time. Then all the sudden we've been living our life the easy way and are surprised that there is no reward. It makes me think of balancing of instinct with our intellect, which is the best part of being human.
Enough of my philosophy, good one you for putting so much work in your girl's future. My W was a big softball player too, I think I told you that. They traveled the country, went to lessons sometimes twice a week, had batting and pitching cages at home, drilled at home. It's no easy task you are undertaking but I think you're doing an awesome thing for her. Not everyone has parents like that. I wish my parents could have helped me more like that, but they just didn't know or didn't care enough to do that. You guys are going to have stories to tell about all your adventures for a long time.
H 34 W 29 BD 3/12/18 Divorce Busted Spring 19
It is not things that bother us, but the stories we tell ourselves about things.
