Pam- You guys make me feel so warm and fuzzy - I am finding my way - inch by tiny inch. I am still fighting for my M. I don't know why, and I don't know what will happen or if I am being a complete idiot, but I am.
I am working on me. I have one heck of an anger problem to conquer - in my first session with a counselor on Friday, I realized I couldn't remember the last time I had gone through an entire day without getting angry. I'm mad all the time! More specifically, I am mad at my H all the time.
180's? Yup, I still have (quite) a few up my sleeve - I have expected to reinvent the wheel in one day, and it just doesn't work that way. I still have some stuff to learn. I have been living in cheeseless tunnels, and wondering why I am so doggone hungry all the time!
So I am still DBing ladies - I know all of you well enough to know that I will have your support and your honest guidance through whatever craziness awaits me.
Myrrh is not yet transformed!!!! I've got a long way to go, and in some ways I can see that from my H's perspective, I haven't changed at all.
Oh, and I will never again assume an exclusive commitment from the H unless we sit down and have an explicit discusssion about it - anyone remeber the Ross and Rachel "we were on a break" fight? Yeah, nuff said - anyway, I am still here - maybe someday I will even start another thread, but not yet - I'm germinating right now. And you can bet when this bean sprout pokes her head above ground again, she will have some things to share!
I love you all very, very much... Myrrh
One moment of patience may ward off great disaster. One moment of impatience may ruin a whole life.
