Awesome ginger. I’m glad your feeling better. I totally agree that as a female I want to be pursued and desired. It really is the secret to a guys success. Be vulnerable enough to let the girl know how much you like her and mean it and their actions need to show it. (Of course look out for guys that know that and exploit it )
Chronic Alcohol and Pot abuse decreases libido, so I’m sure that contributed to M”s indifference. My ex was empty and had no passion for anything. Only got excited if he was meeting up with friends (which always meant alcohol). It’s lonely being with someone like that for years and be glad he left you.
You have so much opportunity. This is a fun time in your life because of the potential. And because you can give yourself some self care. Whenever I went on OLD - I did feel nervous, but also went on feeling excited. I loved the idea of having a reason to dress up and flirt and meet up with someone. I loved the attention and I like to go out and socialize. I knew that the guys I went on dates with would end up liking me - because I know what’s out there and I had fun with keeping things light. Your certainly a lot more fun then I am, . So maybe if you reframe the way you view OLD you will feel more positive with it. And positivity begets positivity and I think positive people are attracted to that. Which is what you want. Just focus on giving yourself the time you need to get yourself feeling good. Exercise and hair cuts work wonders.
