Imagine if I were an addict and just got out of rehab. I've been clean for a whopping 28 days and my life feels like a thousand razor blades without a fix. There is darkness in my thoughts, the pain is unbearable, I don't think it will end and don't yet know how to cope. My therapist thought I needed a trauma support group more than talk therapy. Says I need people not unlike AA. My mistake was quitting group to save money.
I went last night can't you tell the difference in my tone? I've gotten a lot of work done today and my thoughts aren't killing me. I've had moments yes but I've been practicing my DBT skills. Today I kinda get that I'm going to have to put in effort to get better. That healing isn't going to happen via wishful thinking or by the passing of time. This will as ginger put it be the hardest think I ever do but I must do it.
DBT teaches basic mastery skills which sounds pretty cool right? Remember it's a trauma support group. Basic mastery is eating, showering, paying bills, going to work, etc. I have not mastered basic skills. Once I master basic skills I can get a hobby.
