You keep saying the above!!!! It's has become part of your mantra. This statement shows you are in wait mode. GET OUT OF WAIT MODE!!! Your future is not up to her. Her staying in the Marriage is her choice. But making the Marriage work is YA'LL choice.
Stop sitting around waiting for her to make her decision. The feeling you had as well. Every situation is unique.
But trust me, no matter how bad you think your situation is, there is some others that is worst. There have been some crazy stories that has passed thru here. Since I have been here since Aug of 2017, there have been WW:
Leaving there LBS to move to other countries and getting pregnant. WWs getting hook on drugs WWs moving other men into their Marital homes A WW died and so on and so on.
I have seen all kind of crazy pictures of my W and the OM. Read all kind of text. Things that were so hard to purge out of my brain it paralyzed me.
We understand your pain and story.
Forgiveness:
There have also been many LBS there have forgiven their Spouses for all kind of craziness they caused in their lives. Don't worry about what your family is saying. Forgiveness will come later, you need to be worried about healing, detaching and GAL. When and If the times come, you will have to forgive your W everyday, it's not a one time, one day thing. Forgiveness is the process of, giving up the ability to change the past.
IMO, you are in a prime process to get your WW back. I think she is confused and lost. And she's definitely sitting on the fence. But her time on the fence is coming to an end. You are getting tired of being in limbo and you are growing. Last night was a great start.
Onward and forward
M:37 W:37 T:11 M:10 S17, S13, S10, S4 BD:06/28/17 OM confirmed 07/20/17 Recon the M 10/29/17 Working hard:2gether
Onward and forward
This process is not a sprint it's a marathon! Patience, Patience, Patience.
