Don’t be too hard on yourself for why you can’t leave him.
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Thank you LH19, it’s really hard. I mean it’s been 2 years, it baffles me why I still love this man. When he decided to cancel his relocation and said it was because he didn’t want to run and wanted to work on things. I had hopes he was finally turning the corner.
It’s like he’s torn, part of him wants to try to make things work and the other part still finds bachelor life alluring.
Over the past 2 years he’s had 3 opportunities to leave and hasn’t left. Each time he’s decided to stay. This last time when he was planning on relocating, I told him I wouldn’t stand in his way. I knew if he decided to stay the choice had to be his.
Well he made the choice to stay...only to say he wants a divorce. Whew!!!!!
And the crazy thing is, we’ve been communicating very well. He’s even said it. He’s said, I like how we’ve opened the lines of communication again.
LH19 my biggest fear of leaving him is the fear of making a mistake.
I know I’m all over the place but the last few weeks, I’ve felt closer to him than I have in so long. It’s all just weird. I wouldn’t wish this stuff on my worst enemy.
I’ll be fine though. I’m just allowing myself to feel these emotions. I share here because I can’t share this stuff with him.
Original BD: 10/26/2017 PA: 10/2017 - 11/2017 Second BD: 09/15/2018 Currently: IHS M: 42 H: 45 S: 22 lives on his own D: 18 away at college S: 15 still lives at home - the only child we share together
