Friends: Season 3--Expanding and thriving

[Briget]

Good morning Friends.

I missed the last show.But I got to see ER.

I to went to the web site.It made me sad to see so many people hurting.

As we all know I use homor to cope.Sometimes it can put a bandaid on a open wound.

I too have been very guilty of name calling my husbands ow.
It my way of dehumanizing her so I can cope with the pain of my husband sleeping with her.

And lets face it she is not some one who deserves respect.She knew he was married and pursued him anyway.She has a part in the breakup of my marriage.How be it not as much as my husband and I.But if she wasn't in the picture it could be easier to get somewhere in the repair of our marriage.

Maybe I'm wrong.But right now I can't see her as human.It is just to painful.If I see her as a tramp I can let it go.But if I see her as an equal or a good person then there is something wrong with me and he has traded up.That is something a lot of us can't do.

It is like trying to see a killer as human.The mother of the lost loved one may never be able to do that.I think there are only a few strong ones who can.One day I might be.But right now the wounds this woman has inflicted on to me are to fresh.Maybe when they have healed and it is just a scar I will be able to see her as a hurting person.

I know this is harsh.But the reality is I have such a strong hate for her for what she has done.

I need to heal myslef before I can ever forgive her.I'm not there yet.And it will be a long time before Iam.

Later Friends.
Briget