I have told her many many times how sorry I was for everything. I have always took the blame for my actions and I have always stressed that it was never her fault and that she didn't have any short comings that lead me to having an affair. That my actions were my fault and no one else's.

The only things she had said after leaving is that she wished I worked as hard on saving the marriage before she got to the point of leaving. I wish I would have too but before she met the OM and started her EA she only ever told me that we were great, that our marriage was stronger and we were happier. Little did I know where she and our marriage was actually at.

Maybe she temp checking, maybe she's still confused about what she really want, I just don't know, but I know that I probably shouldn't read to much into it, because in reality I have no idea what is going through her head or what she is feeling.

Me 34 Her 34
T:16 years
M:11
4 Daughters: 10,7,6,3
Her EA May 2019
Separated July 30th 2019
Her PA Started August 1st, 2019
Filed October 3rd, 2019