I'm sorry the holidays are so tough. I hope you have success with the meet up groups. I know I have seen other people mention those here and I always wished I lived in a large enough metro area that I could participate in some of those when I was single. Most importantly, just take care of you and little G.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids