kas, I see so much focus on him. Even your new thread title!!
How is your GAL coming? Are you sitting around stewing? Imagining his life is unicorns and rainbows (it is not). What self-improvement activities are engaging in? Use this time to improve yourself. Doing GAL and 180s will help you detach.
Do me a favor. Every day I want you to sit down and write out a list of positive things that happened that day. Remain focused on you and your kids. I don't want you to mention him at all on the list. You need to change your perspective and start being positive. Life is 10% what happens to you, 90% your attitude towards things. Make your 90% all positive and drop the doom-and-gloom.
You can do this!
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018