hello, I have been reading on this forum for a few months now. my story reads mush like every other LBS on here. so, I wont take up to mush space. BD was 05/09/2019. R33, M28, we are both 48, 5 Kids D23, S21,D15, and adopted D4 and S3. I have an idea what started her MLC. terrible abusive childhood, I discovered online EA one year ago, BD in may, found out she has had multiple PA since. wanted to reconcile in august, but still had PA. she moved out this week. I have never had a PA. I am guilty of online sexually innuendo, but never with the same person. inappropriate, yes I agree, now. but back then, I thought I was just being funny. she says I was having an affair every time I would make a comment on Facebook. I love my Wife dearly, I want her to come home. but, for now I am NC for now. I just don't want to see or talk to her. I know that I will because I want to see our three youngest that she took with her.
my question is this, I have no desire to be with any other women. I do not want to defile our marriage. I haven't been inteminte with her since 02/19. I do miss sex with her. but she is getting somewhere else while I wait for her. what should I do while I stand? I am so confused.
