Thank you LH19, I will definitely come here to help anyone that o can.
Woosa, it’s because of websites like this and my faith in God that I’ve been able to last 2 years on this road. I’ve been battered and bruised but I’m not broken. I refuse to let this kill me.
Thank you for your input 44tries. I know that there’s a lesson in all of our struggles. The one the thing I can say about my situation is that I get stronger everyday. I’ve been taking this time to do a lot of work on myself and I’m in a good place mentally. I know that whatever happens, I’ll be ok.
LH19 is right, my husband is lost and he’s admitted as much many times. I can tell that he’s not intentionally trying to hurt me. However, hurt people hurt those closest to them.
I also know that my husband does love me in some shape or forum. The problem is that he’s doesn’t love me the way I need and the way he should. But how could he when he doesn’t love himself?
So watching him struggle allows me to have some form of compassion for him. It’s hard but it’s the truth. Some days I want to smack the crap out of him, and other days...I feel compassion for him.
He truly is lost and it shows in his everyday actions. He’s lost his identity and is out here searching for things in people, places, and things...that he can only find on himself. He’s searching for answers that lie in himself but he hasn’t grown enough to realize that yet.
I have no doubt that someday he will get tired of acting like a ranging teenager. His body isn’t going to allow him go keep this up forever. However as LH19 said, if he turns back to me then...I may have moved on.
Last edited by Living; 12/01/1906:31 PM.
Original BD: 10/26/2017 PA: 10/2017 - 11/2017 Second BD: 09/15/2018 Currently: IHS M: 42 H: 45 S: 22 lives on his own D: 18 away at college S: 15 still lives at home - the only child we share together
