Emotional day. Feeling pretty low today, spoke to several people last night and was unusually very open about my sitch. Met a guy last night who was in a similar place.
Wife dropped the bomb, 2 kids, he moved out of family home, living in a small flat, wife is pregnant with om's child, and he's still madly in love with her.
We spoke for quite a while, he gave me a lot of advice about just waking up each day, living through this pain day by day, Trying to focus on yourself. I was pretty fragile last night, few tears. Shared numbers which was good.
Have to admit I feel stuck on her right now, regardless of trying to gal, reading and reading self help books on Ngs, emotional dependency, and everything I'm trying to force in on detachment and letting go the truth is I'm not there, everything is still very raw and every thought turns back to her.
Some level of acceptance that this is natural, this is where I am right now, things I hope will will get better in time. But she will be in my life forever because of the kids. I have quite a bit of fear that I won't move on, that I will always see her and want to reconcile I'm always going to wonder what if.
I think I've been stuck in some level of denial, its only 3 months in, and pain is still very real and she appears to have just happily moved on.
Tbh I've been distracting myself with fighting my corner, the constant messages and changing situation and my emotional reactions.
