Down, but not out ..... yet.

[Ginger1]

I slept like cr@p last night, I ran out of my sleeping med and my dog pretty much drove me crazy all night. I’m a sleep deprived mother due to my toddler dog.

Around 9pm last night I got a text from OWW. She wished me a happy thanksgiving ( my ex did not, however) and she hoped I got time to relax. I didn’t respond. My mood was not good and I actually got kind of pi$$ed at her. There I am home alone with my daughter while I split my holidays with YOU, and you want to wish me a happy one?

I replied not too long ago and simply wished her a happy thanksgiving as well. She wrote back “thanks! D12 helped and got to spend time with her cousins, it was great” I wanted to punch her in the godd@m face through the phone. I think she senses she is not secure in her relationship and is trying to p!ss me off and keep me close at the same time to “watch” me. Sorry woman, I don’t want you husband. He’s recycled trash. I’d be alone forever first. It was balsy to say what she did.

D12 and I decorated the tree, we are going to put more lights outside, order Chinese for dinner and watch a Christmas movie. My friends invited us over for thanksgiving #2, but she really doesn’t want to go. She wants to stay home and have one on one time with me. She can be a homebody. She’s going back to her dads tomorrow and I think she just wants to be at her home.

Lord, please just get me through this holiday season.