Not willing to quit

[Turbine]

Well today wasn't the worst. Wasn't the greatest either. But it is done. Work for tomorrow so sleep in a few.

Called my sister. Tears and desperate. She wants me to buy her mobile home or live there so she can go to Arizona. Got no money other than the inheritance and she has no direct control over that. Disability has made parts of this a real pain in the backside.

Buying/living there would be a real inconvenient plan. Too long of a commute for my job.

My aunt talked to the accountant about gifting money to my sister from the inherited IRA. Another headache made more complicated by the pending D. We can't do anything until the d is final my aunt says. And when I say I don't want it she says I have to accept it. That my W is gone.

I am so frustrated by all this stuff that I am responsible for yet have no control. My sister has unrealistic expectations of what she can do. My aunt is trying to help me get over this. Except I don't want it. I still want to try for R with my W.

No contact with her today. No contact for a while. More frustration. It hurts still. Because I won't let go. or because I cant'.

To be honest, yes, I have thought of the future without her and with someone else. She is the trump card in my hand/heart. How do I change out that? I still don't know. Which is why I had the forced stay at Spa Le'Pysch. Also not helpful... at least not as much as they might like to think.

Does this explain my frustration any better?

Oh, and the house being listed with the for sale sign in the in our yard... big old honkin failure flag.