22 Years Gone Part 2

[rooskers]

I hope for everyone here that today has at least one moment where your heart and mind are at rest.

Is there a particular thought that gives you these feelings of rawness and burning, or is it the overall magnitude of the situation you've been in? You're getting IC right?

I can't afford both IC for D13 and myself. I think it is the overall magnitude of the situation. In the span of 6 months I have lost my wife, my mom, my stepdad, and half of my friends. The part that hurts is the realization that what I thought I had never really existed. My XW said right after she left that she hadn't really loved me since she started her first affair on me 12 years ago. The understanding that my parents have never really tried to keep me in their lives except when they needed money. It is a lot to take in such a short amount of time.

List of things I am thankful for:

Daughter
House
Job
Couple of close friends
This website
Health