I cheated, we survived, now my wife's cheating

[JC08]

I'm sure its to see if she can get a response from me or maybe not, I'm sure she doesn't care if I have response or not. She seems to do a very good job about not really telling me directly that she has plans with the OM, but instead in text about kid schedules she usually will say what she doing or where she going but then when it involves the OM she is just vague enough to make sure I know she has plans with him.

I never ask, but its hard to not respond with frustration or something, so I don't respond at all. Earlier in the week she asked if she could have the kids Thanksgiving in late afternoon to go to her Grandmas, I say no problem, mines at noon, that one is at like 3. Then today she text and says never mind, I can have then all day. She is supposed to keep them Thursday night. Says its going to be after bedtime when before she gets back from out of town (OM family and kids are all 3 hours away), so I know she'll be with OM, she has never missed her grandma's Thanksgiving in the 16 years we've been together, and she will pick them up super late or did she need to make arrangements with her mom.

I know, I know, I just need to get use to it. I just have to deal with it, but it just seems like she slips just enough information into kid schedules to make sure I know she's with the OM or is going to be with him, or that she's going to be out of town over the weekend, or whatever. I don't want to hear it, I don't want to think about it, and know I have to hear my kids using his name around me. Just feel like she does it for a response and that she just don't give a hell that its hurtful.

I know I'm just bitching, trying to be calm and put together around her is just difficult because she does the same thing at drop-off when we see each other in person.