Turbine. I may or may not have mentioned on here before that I've thought about suicide many times through out the course of my life sometimes on a daily basis. Even today it crosses my mind when things get overwhelming, circumstantial bad, or the same occurrences keep happening over and over and over no matter how hard you try to fight it. Pray for it, or improve it. So you TEMPORARILY FEEL LIKE... WHSTS THE POINT TO LIFE? The truth is its ok to think it. Its ok to talk about it. Its not ok to act on it for any reason. For attention, to end any temporary pain you may be feeling. The truth is it can bring pain and hardship one season, and blessings and abundance another. Its the ebb and flow of it all and you have to step back sometimes and recognize this and roll with the punches. Sometimes I take a nap. And even though I feel guilty of it because it kills my production. I know it resets my mind to the right place where the worry of the chattering anxiety subside You have to let it pass brother. It will force you into a stronger character. The point to life is this. None of us can predict the future, none of us have a crystal ball, and none of us know when we are going to go. It could be in our sleep at a ripe old age, or I could get hit by a bus tomorrow. Or? The lottery.. Lol. I love it when I can help people that are going through a rough time because I have had my fair share of them. But compared to others, its not so bad either. Somebody somewhere out there has it worse than you. Take a drive through the most poverty stricken area you can find closest to you one night, and you'll see how fast and how grateful you become for having the life that you have, ups, downs, hi's low's and all. Your pain is a past chapter, Write a new one. I don't know why we are here? What our purpose is, or God's plan for us. A part of me wants to dwell with him because of the disdain I am starting to gave for this earth, and the other part of me has no choice but to keep going while I'm here. I do know one thing regardless until it is my time. Until I start serving the lord with all my heart, my words, my actions, my body and spirit, my fruit and my works, life is useless. Without him I can do nothing. I made bad choices, mistakes, I stumbled in sin. I'm sure our spouses have too which is why we are here. Get ok with being alone. There is freedom in it. We come into the world that way, and we go out of it the same way. Nobody knows what tomorrow brings. Pain or blessings, sometimes both in the sane day. Learn from the pain and affliction, and cherish and be gracious for the blessings. Life is important and what you make of it, but not as important as getting your mind and spirit right with God. The world experiences and pressures and pleasures can come second. Hope this helps.
