I still haven't figured out the detach part of this. I want my Mahal, my wife. Pretty messed up isn't it. I've been on this board for a long time and not sure I have made any progress.
Yeah, I still get those thoughts. Still won't act on them. Kids and grandkids... what could I leave to explain it to them. Also would she even care? Permanently removes any chance of R. I am sure that God isn't done with me yet.
I ran across an article about Carlos Santana. After divorce from his wife of 34 years (if I recall the article) he found Jesus and had tried to commit suicide seven times. None of them were successful. So, yeah, fight another day even if trusting the Plan is hard.
Are you in IC? This whole section here concerns me, about your mindset and frame-of-mind. Thoughts of suicide can be very very dangerous if not followed up with a professional on.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
