Work was insane. I can’t even begin to tell you how hard I work each day. And I’m good with it. Except when I work pst my paid hours. Then I get cranky. We all do.
I left today to go to parent teacher conference. The perk of my job is her school is 5 min away from work. I saw her main subject teachers. And wow. Just wow. They love her. They think she is always engaged, is interested, tries really hard and is so focused. d12 loves her math teacher and her math teacher loves her. She said she’s seen such a change in her where she is focused, it freaking out and doing well. She pulled an A out at the end. Every teacher says she is a pleasure in class.
But the biggest proudest moment....
They all said she is such a happy kid and full of life. And let me tell you, as a parent of a child from a “broken” home... that is just about the best thing you can hear. The fear is your kid is going to suffer from divorce and it’s going to affect them awfully. I made it my life’s mission since she was an infant and this happened to make sure she was a happy kid.
And she is. Did the divorce affect her? Of course it did! Is this situation as it is better than if her parents were still together and nothing ever got fixed? OMG yes! But if you always put your kids first and make sure they are well-adjusted, it will happen!
I have a daughter who is super smart, passionate, strong and happy. May she test me and my patience daily, I couldn’t ask for anymore from her. I’m so freakin proud of the lovely lady she has become.
I’m other news, she did stay home from school today because it’s a half day and she’s so congested and uncomfortable. My dad came to spend some time with her and go shopping with her. He also brought up my Christmas tree so we can decorate it on Friday and him and I went out to dinner together because she went to dads house for his wife’s birthday. And that went well and we had a nice dinner and convo.
Tonight wasn’t their night but she wanted to spend it with every one for her stepmothers birthday. So I said she could go. And of course I wished her a happy birthday.
My ex and his wife have been making an unwanted entrance into my dreams. I’m a bit freaked by their desire to hang out with me and also be one happy family. It’s reflecting in my nightmares. In last nights me and my ex were reconciling and having this wonderful relationship. And then all of a sudden his wife’s parents fell ill and he just dropped me like a hot potato again and was nasty. I haven’t had a dream like that in a long time. And what freaked me out the most was me realizing I was again plan B.
And I will never, ever be plan B again.
I’m feeling that possibly in the new year I’d be ready to date again. It’s going to be difficult. There is a lot I won’t tolerate any more. But I so miss having a relationship. I want it again, and in a healthy way. I look forward to a healthy , happy loving relationship again.
I’ve also been doing really well with intuitive eating. Recognizing what’s worth it, when I’m full, and when I’m eating out of boredom or loneliness.
Everything in life I’m learning is a marathon, not a sprint
