I guess I do miss the fantasy. But there was a portion of it that was really good. I miss that. And after a year, I guess that person just becomes a part of your life and quitting it cold turkey is rough. I’ll always care about him and wonder about him. And especially his son of course.
I have not tried to make any single women girlfriends. They are about as hard to find as a good guy to date. And they don’t give me the physical touch and intimacy I miss and crave, lol. Also, I’m in such a weird place. The newly divorced are like girls gone wild and the never married ones live a different life than I do. But I do have some coworkers looking out for someone to hook me up with. Not by me asking them to do, but by them wanting to do so.
However, I have a work holiday event every week until Christmas. I had a social work event last week and had a really fun time with my coworkers. I enjoy spending social time with them and I’m glad I’ve got something to do with them when my daughter goes to her dads. So, it’s a step in the right direction. I went to my friends for her birthday Saturday night with my daughter , but she wasn’t feeling well so we couldn’t stay too long. But I am not totally holed up in my home. It’s the nights. The nights kill me. But when it’s time, it’s time
