Getting hit by a ton of bricks today... spiraling thoughts and anxiety, worse than normal.
Not sure if it's due to some physical withdrawal from the weekend of drinking and partying - I guess Monday's were always a little harder. Or if it's the reality setting in more.
Hung out with a friend who knows about the sitch, and he started being pushy about not putting up with sh*t and taking action with D to show consequences. I've heard to be careful with advice from people like that, he's never been married or even had a LTR relationship since his adult life (he's 40+).
Also, read a lot more threads on another website SI this weekend. The advice there is similar with GAL and 180, but a lot less do nothing than DB here, and more towards expose and file. They have a more grim attitude there towards WW and serials. Maybe that's the reality I need.
With Thanksgiving coming up, thoughts are creeping in that WW will invite OM to her family and introduce him, and she will make up some BS narrative about me, and everyone will accept him, and not see him as the low life that he is. This may just be my imagination.
Been also thinking about the D, and realizing that my fear is that I will be divorce raped, and left with little safety net in life after everything is split up. I suppose she has the same fears when you are dividing 2 people's life together, but she has more family support here and OM to fallback on. My guess is that this is also everyone else's fear.
Starting to put together a daily list of goals / tasks, so that I can keep focus and be productive every day. Never did this before...
