You haven´t heard from me in a while. I´ve been doing well. No more dates besides those two, just been busy with work and some travel. I was really doing fine. Until today...
Just a moment ago, I was walking to a café near me to get a double espresso as I often do. On my way I walked by a guy and a girl walking in to another café near me. I turned around and noticed it was my stbxw. My heart sank...I ´m doing well like I said but this is the first time I actually see her with another man with my own eyes. I figured something like this was going on since I haven´t heard from her in a while. As I wrote earlier, she came over late at night on November 2 when her phone and wallet were stolen. Then nothing until 6 days ago when she messaged and asked a random question.
Anyway, going to the gym now. I just thought I was more detached than this. Didn´t think it would bother me this much...
Yeah that's what I've found throughout this process as well.. "I'm good. I'm totally detached and could careless what she does!" Then I hear some new truth (the latest being my S4 sleeping in bed with my W and her AP) and it just feels like a dagger straight through the heart.
Just have to keep climbing that mountain. We'll both be better with more time and perspective on our side. Just gotta keep on keeping on. I find it's tough for a few days to hear a new "truth" but ultimately helps me detach even further after about 3 days or so.
