Sorry to hear about all the despair you’ve been dealing with lately. I don’t have any specific advice regarding the parenting plan etc but one thing I want to mention is that I can feel your desperation when I read your posts. When I was in the thick of my previous BD’s, my predominate emotion was fear and despair. I was so codependent on my W that when she left, I didn’t even know who I was as an individual. I felt like I needed her like I need air.
I’m curious if you can relate to some of things I just described. Because for me, once I started truly understanding what I was feeling/fearing and how that was driving my fear and abandonment issues, that’s when I started to realize I was going to be ok with or without W.
