Gets easier every time. This is my fifteenth thread, and like creating a new thread, our “new” lives, our new habits and duties become easier, commonplace, and “feel” normal.
I seem to reflect at the start of a new thread. Take stock, see where I am, where I’m going, and how far I’ve come.
I had some interesting conversations with some people at work and IRL. The conversations were similar so I’ll use one as an example. I was having lunch with good friend, one of the many who stood by me during all this. I told her “I’m back. I’m finally back.” She said “You’ve been back for a while now.” I did acknowledge that and agreed. Yes, I’ve been back for a while.
You see, I’ve given myself a few months each time as a new stage emerged. Time to see if it is going to stick or not. To see if my feelings regarding it will change or not. To see if my thoughts change or not.
I’ve felt like I was back for a while. My thoughts came first, clearheaded, logical, reasoned, and so forth. Feelings confirmed this idea of being back to myself, well DnJ 2.0. My current status is - Yes, I’m back. I believe it, there is something inside, a force, a confidence, a conviction - Lol, beliefs are hard to put into words, they are made from thoughts, feelings, and something else, something very deep and personally defining.
As I said, others have seen that I’ve been back for a while. I’ve finally embraced and accepted this latest arrival along a growing list that creates my path.
I have way more good days than bad. I still have hope, and lots of encouragement within. And apparently still more topics I would like to discuss. Oh, a cliffhanger, a teaser.
Have a great day my friends.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
