Caring for me, prompted expectations in me. Did I expect him to act on it? Give me the big apology I so crave?
This right here is the crux of a lot of my current emotional state as well Grace. My former and I are still no contact, but I get emotional at the realization I will very likely never receive an authentic and understanding apology that I (at times) desperately want. It's like she has no idea what she had done to me. Or maybe she does, and feels the kindest thing to do is stay away. Who knows.
Because for me I know even if I were to receive an apology right now I could not handle it. It would tear me down back to wanting her back and having expectations that she wanted the same.
You are not off-track. You ARE on-track. It's just that sometimes the track is wobbly with emotion. You're still doing what's best for you and that's what really matters.
