H has been reaching out to that mutual friend he met with a few weeks ago. A lot. She and I had dinner this week, and she shared a lot of what he was saying to her.
H had said to me in an email he was "not happy. Torn". That he "cared for me. Deeply. More than I realize'. Wishing me a Happy Thanksgiving. Exact words: "Hope all of you enjoy your Thanksgiving Holidays. obviously I won't be around"
I almost regret my friend sharing what H wrote to her. Reading what H sent to me.
H is a mess. Why should I care? I'm not really surprised.
I think his expressions of being not happy. Torn. Caring for me, prompted expectations in me. Did I expect him to act on it? Give me the big apology I so crave?
Maybe.
Probably.
Time to get back on track.
I've got family and friends coming for Thanksgiving. Lots of activities and several invitations to parties for Christmas. My life is blessed. Full.
I do feel sorry for H. But, he is living his choices.
