I'm probably yo-yo-ing between anger and depression.
Angry whenever I think about this F*ing situation.
Maybe depressed... just recognizing that past several days been having trouble waking up to alarm and getting out of bed in the morning for work. Not waking up at 5 am with anxiety like before, but just lower motivation and energy. Not sure if it's related to the colder fall / winter weather outside. Will try to do more physical activities to combat it.
Anyways, continue to work on myself. Hard to fill up weekdays with "fun" activities, so been trying to work out, read, declutter at home. Wrote a list of goals to help meet new people including cooking classes, volunteer opportunities, MeetUps, and AA - still researching but haven't done any of them yet.
As for WW... communication and text is less and less, and strictly about business now since anything else she says I don't respond. I do act pretty cold, so maybe I'm not DBing correctly and it's going worse, or she's deep in her EA and this is just the roller coaster progression.
Question for the vets...
Since I ran into WW at the club with OM... it's effectively the confrontation of the truth exposing her lies.
Should go ahead and remove all the clothes she left at the home from the MBR closet, and put it bags into another room / hallway or something to enforce my boundary?
Not sure if it's any useful at this point if she's already not living at home. She does come back to grab stuff here or there.
Couple side notes...
- She still paid her share of the shared bills as of this month, so I have to be mindful of her rights. Outside of MBR is still inside the home. - I used to get angry and toss her stuff, so I've been doing a 180 to not reinforce that childish behavior of mine, and let her see that the home is still a good place that she will miss.
