Did some detachment reading last night, a letting go meditation and a detaching sleep hypnosis. Ending up waking at 3am with severe anxiety. Hoping it was just feelings coming to the fore.
But had her on my mind and everything I ever did wrong all morning.
Accept that detachment is a process, just kinda shook me up. Reminding myself to be kind to myself.
Forced it, but eating well today, that's a change. Need to keep it up.
Messages from wife this morning, showing me s12 term reports, he is struggling a bit, but Agreed he was doing pretty well considering everything he's going through this term.
Stated I would contact his mentor today to arrange a meeting.
Wife: if we are having Xmas lunch out somewhere together we should book somewhere soon. Me: I will look at options today.
Then a stream of work messages from her about how many orders she will be doing, how busy she is, what orders I'm doing. Didn't respond to most, just the essentials and kept it brief.
I then get a call from energy provider for the family house (account is in my name) Notifying me they had a request to switch to another provider and they would be objecting due to outstanding debt. Notified I no longer lived there, to remove my name and speak directly to my wife.
Messaged her to notify her.
Her: we can get a much cheaper deal with xyz. And pay off debt.
Me: I'm good with you making any switches. I've notified them I'm no longer named on the account.
