Slowly, Suzy, My weekend was ok. I did not ride bike with S because he needed an intertube(sp).
Positives 1.I went walking Saturday and Sunday. 2.I stuck to my house cleaning schedule. I have no dirty laundry! 3.I cooked my dinner for today yesterday. 4.H came to our house Friday and hung around a bit. I told him that he really looked handsome and gave him the card.( I wanted to hug him) He said, Thank You about 5x's and said then he kept saying this card is so nice! 5. He called Saturday 3x's b4 noon starting at about 8:30am. I let S answer 1st 2x's because we have caller ID. The 3rd time I answered. He said, You know those books that you love to read? I said, Whic ones because I devour about 3 books a week. He said< I 4got the authors name but anyhow it is my union buddy's wife. I said, What is his last name? He said , she doesn't use her married name. I said, oh. He said, she email her nad tell her who you are? (who am I ? Your wife?) and she is going to give you discounts on her books. I said, cool. He said, they live right around the corner from us? I told them WE live on Y------ Avenue.
I have been dark for a month . I haven't called him to chit chat. He will call me to say something that can usually wait. I don't always answer because sometimes the calls come at 10-11 pm. Should I start calling him here and there. I know that H is insecure so I don't want him to think I don't want him or the M. That I am used to this arrangement. Him feeling not wanted has always been an issue because sometimes I was An ice princess! Ouch, atleast now I can Admit It.
Any Suggestions???????????? It has been 5 1/2 mos. He has never verbally mentioned coming home but always has confusing actions. He wants to have input @ home but says he won't come back. I haven't asked in about 1.5 mos. Is it normal for them to never actually say it? I think H is afraid to eat humble pie because he talked so much about what he wouldn't do to everbody and he is very prideful. He may think it will make him weak if he doesn't stick to his word. He left overnite 1X and said, What kind of man do you think I am that I would leave 1X and come back and do it again? That is PRIDE talking. I left for 2 wks as well, when I couldn't handle A emotions. What does that have to do with anything?
