I did smile at the salt and pepper shakers. It’s weird what strikes their fancy at the moment.
You can see the teenager in H’s behaviour. Just leaving stuff out without a care of concern about it being stolen.
I like your acknowledgement of the advice not feeling like the right thing to do. Yep, counterintuitive at first. Your other stated reason is also valid and good, it takes time to get one’s feelings under control. Finding detachment and indifference is a process, and you are well on the way.
I’m glad H replied well to the Christmas schedule. Keeping our expectations at zero has the analogous of expect anything. Same kind of thing, just a different view point.
Nice to see you calmer and with less anxiety. That also takes time to find, that balance within the storm. Some more advice, realize this moment, your calmness and anxiety level. You can achieve it, you are doing it right now. Your mind now knows you can find it, your feelings will take some cycles to realize it as well, and then you will start to believe it and live it. As odd as that may or may not sound.
Enjoy your much deserved peace and calm.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
