I would suggest you cut back on your drinking if you can't control yourself.
Ok. First let's talk about your statement of DB working. DB is a way of life that gives you the best chance at recon. So far I have to say you are below average at following the process.
With all the contact you have she is never going to have a chance to miss you. She will never figure out that you are the reason she is so unhappy.
I will say this though the way she is treating you leads me to believe there are signs there are still feelings. Most WWs who are just done will try to keep it amicable until the process is over.
