Just found out today that she is going on a beach vacation with the OM in January. Im trying to detach, trying not to care, but I just can't figure out how to do that.

We will definitely still be married at that point, I have no idea who she is at this point.

This is a trip that the OM is provided by a seed company, lots of area farmers go on trips like this through their dealer. I know for a fact my wife will be the 4th different girl in the last 4 years. 4 years ago was the OM then wife, then a different woman the last two years, this year it will be my wife. Doesn't seem to be a concern of hers though.

Just venting, things like this seem to send me reeling, and pretty much know the next couple of days are going to be sleepless nights and I'm sure a new set of nightmares.

Me 34 Her 34
T:16 years
M:11
4 Daughters: 10,7,6,3
Her EA May 2019
Separated July 30th 2019
Her PA Started August 1st, 2019
Filed October 3rd, 2019