I think what I am struggling with is I’m having a hard time talking about anything that is or did upset me. I got real used to not putting much on his plate that involved me .

It’s almost been so calm between us it’s frightening. Not one even hint of a disagreement. But is it more that I just don’t communicate or maybe realized he just can’t handle some of it.

He doesn’t do anything that would send up red flags . If anything been much more helpful and sweet .

I’m at a place that I call “content “ but not swinging from chandeliers.