LH Friend, when I type on these boards I tend to ramble. Like really bad. Lol. I need to do this on a computer instrad of a phone lol. What I’m about to say is the Gods honest truth. I believe in God so I would not say that lightly
1 I am totally ok getting D’d.
2 IF she had a total change of heart right now, I would have to think long and hard before I was willing to recommit. I have forgiven everything she has done and said. But I haven’t forgotten.
3 I’m ok being single and doing more self improvement and maturing as a healthy adult so when the time does come for my next R (regardless of who it is with), I will be the best version of me possible.
4 I still have much work to do on myself
5 I WANT her to be happy. Regardless of who it is with
6 I’m no longer sad about this. I just think I was because of the emotional night we had.
7 I want to proceed carefully so that any hypothetical chance at recon is not destroyed by some careless actions now (this does NOT mean I want to recon, just that I don’t want to ruin it if I can)
8 I’m genuinely confused about whether I should be filing for D or waiting. (Maybe I’m misunderstanding the word “standing”
9. I am not letting her go. I already have let her go
10 I wonder if we would have ever worked out anyways. We have some massive fundamental differences in thinking. (I believe in God, she is a devout atheist). She finds religion repulsive. I always see the good in people. She always sees the bad.
I’m just looking for guidance on how to proceed. As a healthy strong and good man. I want to do whatever is right
