Just journaling Every day seems like an emotional struggle.
D6 started her new school today, agreed to meet wife at school gates so we could both take her in. Honestly it's a struggle just seeing her, hoping for some glimpse of hope, both focussed on daughter but can't help looking at her. She was quick to leave, very guarded again, I confirmed we would both pick her up, and she stated she would pick up following days as we had discussed last week, I said if that's what you would like, ( plans have changed quite often this week) she rolled her eyes.
Agreed to speak later re: work
Day goes on and several phone calls to and fro about work, ( this was a change as everything has been by message for a considerable amount of time) Although all business related things were all pretty amicable. We both made a lot of headway at work today.
Go to pick up d6. I'm waiting at the gates, she walks up looks in my direction, I smile ,she walks right by.
I finish my cigarette and walk in, say hi to her, didn't you see me? Her: no where were you? Me: at the gates, you walked right by me Her: I didn't see you, I would have said hi. ( her eyesight isn't the best, I believed her, it's more the emotional effect on me every perceived slight has)
Picked our d6 up, she had a great 1st day, I suggested wife take her out for a bit, and I'll go back to work till 6 to finish up. She agrees.
So wife drops kids back at mine at 6, again she doesn't want to enter flat and clearly has somewhere to be, she asks if we are exchanging Friday or Saturday? I reply Friday like you suggested is good.
She starts talking about whether I will have enough time to wash all their clothes
I say that's no problem. She switches to, I lost a day this week and need a day to sort their rooms out.
I say that's fine, Saturday morning is fine
She leaves, and within a minute I'm like , hold on I just got played there. She's been invited out Friday night.
So sat here thinking, do I say to her, hi, I've been invited out Friday night, can we do change Fri or will you still need time for their rooms?
