I wanted to call her, and read it to them and talk about how we can go back to those. I want to text her and tell her how much I miss her, that I love her. I want to tell her how this D will not solve underlying issues, will make it more difficult for us to raise our kids. I want to ask her to think about it again
Im sorry brother. thats how I feel as well. I found some old letters she has written to me while I was deployed to Thailand. She wrote about how much she missed me and couldn't wait until I returned home. She really loved me. I KNOW IT WAS REAL. I would give anything to feel that love again.
But now the only fighting chance is that I have to fight for myself and my son. Its the only way. I have to really believe in my heart that i'm AMOAFWL. Maybe she will see that and come back...or not. Nothing is guaranteed.
