All 3 of us are at home this Sunday morning. The W is in the living room with our S, while I'm hanging out in the MBR. She's on her phone as always, laughing out loud, constantly receiving text messages no doubt from her lover. She seems so happy to be interacting with OW and not with me. It definitely hurts. Especially when I visualize all those text messages between them that I saw. I love you, I miss you, babe. Cant wait to cuddle with you etc. It hurts bad. She was my babe, and we made a commitment to each other. Now she's "loving" another woman.
How can they really love each other? Their relationship is built on lies and deceit. The OW is toxic and breaking up a family. How can my W love her? How can my W tell OW that she loves her when WE had sex just the other day? Is she really a lesbian now? I feel like my W is lost and don't know if she will ever find her way back.
I'm keeping a straight face, made breakfast earlier and started doing Sunday chores.
Still having trouble formulating a plan. It's hard for me to detach from her when I see her everyday. I'm still feeling like I haven't took any action yet. The only thing that I did so far was moving her stuff out to the guest room, only to have her move her stuff back to the MBR.
I have pictures of the text messages between my W and OW and can easily expose. In fact she went into my phone and deleted all of them although I have backups and since changed my password a few times.
Right now i'm concentrating on staying calm and relaxed in every interaction with my W. I have to admit though, I feel like i'm not doing anything and am allowing this A to happen right in front of my eyes. Is this what you all suggest? I went out with friends to GAL last night, I already go to the gym, practice martial arts, do pretty well at work, take good care of my S, do my fair share around the house, manage our finances. I already do a lot for our family.
HOW DO I STOP THE AFFAIR???
I can't be around my W and not feel extremely heartbroken. I've been trying to look at things objectively and at times I can do that without any emotions. But I melt when I see her.
I want to talk to her about moving out this house. Rent is quite expensive and I have been thinking about this even before the BD. I can use that as a potential way for us to separate- a clean slate. She can find a place to live and i can find my own. We can talk about splitting time with our son. I will be talking to a few lawyers soon and will ask about that as well.
What should I do guys? I can't detach from her while we're in the same house. It's just not possible for me. I love her too much and I melt when i see her. I need her out of site out of mind if I have any hope of letting her go for real.
