H will be here to bring D4 home soon. It’s been a very emotional day and I feel fragile. It’s also the last time we’ll see each other before our progress check in at court on Tuesday. I have to be honest: I’m feeling like saying something to him. His actions today feel like SOMETHING is happening with him. I won’t pretend to know what it is. What if, just what IF, he was reaching out to me in his own way? Part of the major reason he left is because I made him feel unloved and unvalued. What if he wants me to come toward more and let him know I love and value him?? I know this sounds desperate and typical LBS and not at all DB. BUT I am genuinely afraid that because of this particular issue, his pride wants me to, dare I say, pursue him???
I’m so torn. I also really don’t want to blow all the progress I’ve made if it’s absolutely the wrong call. HELP!!
