A different bar... yes, I think that’s it. I am looking for a companion...not a dad for my kids or someone to pay my bills. I want someone that has my back, is interested in me as a person, forgives my flaws, appreciates my strengths, is kind to my kids but not looking to be their dad (turns out they have a pretty good one now that we aren’t together) and who challenges me to grow in some way. And I want someone who is really affectionate and doesn’t mind that I am too. Does Jack meet those criteria? Some of them. With some of them, the jury is still out. I see flashes of it on the weekends...the weekday separation is still a tad bit too separate for me. But....he hopes to move to my area so I will see what happens when he lives closer. For now, he makes me happy and I like spending time with him. Oh...and he has earned a few brownie points this week. My tournament is next week and he says he wants to come watch which is a new one for me. Neither of my ex’s were interested in doing that. My kids’ dad came once with a couple of his friends to watch me play for about an hour in 2017 - ironic since he was three years into his double life by that time. Anyway...I”m happy Jack is interested. It means a lot to me.
In other news.... OW is in the hospital again. Not for Shingles though. Apparently her pancreas issues have arisen again (last year he says she “almost died”) and she is quite ill. That’s all the info I have. Makes me wonder about her past as I don’t think it is common for a 38 year-old to have issues with her pancreas unless she has done some serious drinking. Don’t think this is currently an issue but her having had a hard life has been alluded to a few times. I ended up taking the kids on one of his nights so he could be with her at the hospital. He was very thankful. I told him I hoped they were better able to treat her this time and he texted me “Thank-you - like really”. Honestly...I don’t wish poor health on anyone even if I have every reason in the world to do it. Life’s too short to be angry and bitter and she has kids who need her. So I hope she gets better.
Having some issues with my brother that make me wonder about a mental illness but I don’t have enough details to make a judgment call. He’s been trying to call me that last couple days to tell me about something that is “about to happen” that he is excited about. I know a few details from my BIL and it’s not good. He’s approaching delusional territory. I’m not looking forward to when we finally connect as I know what he wants to tell me and I don’t know what to say to him about it. My sister has been avoiding him too for the same reason. Regardless of his mental state, he is going to be crushed when things don’t work out the way he thinks.
Anyway...off to face another day. Thanks again for keeping up with my sitch everyone. Really appreciate it. (((HUGS)))
