A year on and standing

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Hi LH,

Actually when I attended those functions, its not more of hoping anything for the both but I think to have the both parents being present together for the kids. I also do feel pointless on the part of playing happy family to the adults but more for the kids?

I am pretty used in going out with both the chaps myself now since it's coming to 2 years for our sitch. In fact, I do feel that the whole outing is much more relaxed and less pressured without her around. Given her sudden emotional explosion or way of preference over the others, then giving hell if couldn't get it her way.

Sometime its just kinda crazy and out of the world. I'll just share an instance. I was at the mall. She was with the kids and she called asking if I am doing grocery shopping? I told her maybe later or the next day when they are back home and I get the car which is much more convenient for me. She then suggest me to do the shopping and they will drive over and pick me up.

I finished my shopping in time when they came over to pick me up. I got onto the car, she kicked up a big fuss. Saying why should I carry out the shopping now and could have done it the next day. And now she is late for her next appointment.

I never intend to do the shopping that day. She suggested me to.
I never ask her to pick me up. She offered to.
I was in time. Not the one delaying her.

I felt that I am dealing with a schizo at times. Thus, I actually pretty much enjoy the time alone with the chaps or by myself. Just that when I am out alone, I do worry about what the chaps are going through.