That means the changes were for your W and won't stick. After reading your last two posts she is throwing you scraps with TV time and happy hours and you are eating it up. I just want to brace you that these situations get worse before they get better.
I respectfully disagree that the changes are for my W. I’ve been preparing myself for a D and to move on to a new life. That said, I have been hopeful that it won’t go that far. Either way, I know that I need to put myself in a better place. I have been very pessimistic for a while now and that’s one of my changes. Be optimistic. Prepare for the worst but hope for the best. Despite my spiraling last night and this morning, I changed the way I would usually act around my family while in that headspace this morning. I stayed positive and put on a happy face. The past week has been genuine happiness 95% of the time. Today I had to revert back to faking it, but I’m still maintaining my 180. It’s just difficult to stay optimistic as I watch the hope slowly slip away. I don’t want my hope to change from hope for my MR to hope that I can confidently walk away from it, but that’s what I’m now preparing for.
