God would not condemn you if you decided not to reconcile after divorce. The Bible does tell us that we can be divorced on the grounds of adultery. The Priest in my church has had many discussions w/our congregation on this topic, i.e., those who have been divorced and/or going through divorce.
You will know, when the time comes, if you should follow through on divorce. I would ask my lawyer those questions that are still on your mind. Jot them down and either make an appointment of shoot him a text/email to get the answers.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
