Another break through today! W called/texted me to let me know the dogs meds were ready for pick up if I wanted to stop by on my way home from work. I was already just down the street voting and didn’t want to go back out so I just went home and told her I’ll pick them up tomorrow. She said she’s exhausted and not up for cooking so she’d run out and grab the meds and dinner but wasn’t sure what to get. Old me: “whatever sounds good to you”. Instead I said “why don’t we call in a pick up order to this great Italian place right around the corner from the vet?” Kids went nuts (9D loves pasta and 7S will eat pizza 3 times a day) and she pulled up the menu and placed the order. She seemed happy just to not have to think about it.
After dinner we talked for a couple minutes and couldn’t believe how exhausted we both were so early. She mentioned watching a tv show together tonight and I asked if we could table it for another night so we could both get some sleep. She agreed. We have one show that we have in common and we’ve been saving the new episodes on DVR so we could eventually watch them together. Just the fact that she wants to spend an hour together fills me with hope.
If this would have happened a week ago, I would have jumped at the opportunity but now that I’m in full on detachment mode, it felt great to entertain the offer but decline for the night...and actually mean it! Of course I want to spend time with my W but #1.) I’m tired and want to sleep. #2.) I don’t want her thinking I’m going to be her puppy and right at her feet when she’s ready to spend time with me.
I’m extremely encouraged with the several small signs of progress over the past couple days but still need to take everything with a grain of salt and continue to detach. The more I think about it, I’m now beginning to realize the magnitude of detachment and GAL and how it’s the quick fix to implement immediate change, but these are things I will need to continue for the rest of my life; whether married or not.
