Weathering the Storm

[Coconut]

I am struggling with something that is bothering me, and I'm not sure if i'm in the wrong for thinking the way I am or if what I'm feeling is fair and understandable. Not sure of any place other than here where I could talk about it and possibly get some feedback. A warning, this might be TMI, but I'm trying to give information that explains why I feel the way I do.

Long story short, my FWB and I have been getting along splendidly, I would say that we are more dating than are FWB as we go out and do something every time we see each other, and she sleeps over pretty much every night we go out. We generally will spend a night together 3 out of every 4 weeks, but there is very little communication outside of the time we spend together (like maybe one text session every 2 weeks for about 30 minutes).

I took her on a trip with me this last weekend, I wanted to go up to the mountains and see the fall colors, so I invited her to come along, the entire trip was on me (only additional costs of her going was her meals).

We went out Thursday night and then she stayed over Thursday and we left Friday morning. Long story short, after a little foreplay in bed Thursday I asked her if she was on her cycle, she told me she was, and I said that's really unfortunate but I did not want to be intimate while that was going on. We went to bed shortly after.

Friday night I had a hard time sleeping at the hotel, i'm not sure why I couldn't sleep but while i was laying there, the fact that I was sexually frustrated was on my mind. In the morning she asked why I couldn't sleep and I told her I wasn't sure, but I was honest with her and told her I think that because the weekend wasn't working out quite like I had hoped I think being sexually frustrated had a lot to do with it. I think I should mention we hadn't seen each other for two weeks prior to this trip due to me going on other trips the previous weekends.

Saturday night we kissed a little when we went to bed, but I did not want to get myself worked up (by this time I kinda realized there were not going to be any benefits on this trip) so it was an early night. Sunday morning I asked her why there were no benefits on this trip (it was bothering me and I wanted to be honest), she initially said she was going to Saturday night but then I said I was going to go to sleep, then she said that she still has a hard time initiating (which I always do, but I wasn't going to ask for something when I was the one not willing to have intercourse).

I am not sure if I feel like there should have been benefits because of nice guy tendencies, such as I was nice to take you on this trip and you owe me, or if my feelings are valid and she was being a little selfish. It might be worth mentioning that I am very generous in bed, when we are together there have only been two sessions where I didn't make sure she finished and those where in the morning after I had made sure she did the night before, and I have given certain benefits many more times than I have received said benefits.

I'm now questioning if I want to keep seeing her. Am I being a jerk for feeling this way?