I’m starting to have fun on my own and able to forget about the sitch here and there. I’m starting to really like the changes I’m making. At this point, I just need to maintain consistency and keep faith that I can withstand the time.
That's great man! I'm still falling in and out of a depressed state. Some days I feel strong, some weak -you know the deal. During work, i've been able to hold it together a bit better, but last Saturday I was home alone as the W went to work, and my S spent some time with his cousins. Being alone at home is torture for me. I need to figure something else out for the weekends. Maybe I'll go on a weekend climbing trip with my son and some buddies.
What else is hard is that my W has been working late 3 nights a week, this last time she worked and texted that she'll be having drinks with her friends. I end up not being able to sleep when she's not home (of course my insecurities get to me). when i do finally sleep, she comes home and then wakes me up- then I have to restart the process of falling asleep. Looking at going to the doc for some sleep meds
