So my W texts me after a long night at "work" 1230am and says she's going to have a few drinks with her coworkers. I respond with "have a good time" and then try to go back to sleep. Not sure what time she ended coming home.
When i woke up this morning I had this feeling of disgust. I'm starting to be less empathetic to her wanting to be happy and more disgusted that she's choosing her friends over her own son. I never felt angry towards her, but just extremely sad. Now I'm starting to get angry and really disappointed in my W. I'm hoping this will fuel my detachment. Reading TxHubby's sitch was really inspiring, and I need to get to a point of not giving a F about my W and TRULY focusing on myself. I felt like I've been faking the detachment thus far...I need to make it REAL.
I'm almost thinking about letting whatever she's doing slide. As in not giving a F if she's having an affair, not trying to snoop or investigate etc. If it's happening, it's happening. The truth will come out and if i'm playing my cards right, I'll be in a better place to either accept and forgive, or just move on and cut the rope.
