Went to a car dealership just for fun, looked around a few vehicles and humoured the sales guy by asking lots of questions. I walked away with nothing but it was all good. I'm currently looking at whether to downsize to a tiny car and then either hire a van for when I do gigs, or even buy/rent an electric van for gigs. Just doing some sums! Probably won't decide for several months yet.
Had a slight pang of sadness this evening, watching some TV with mum. I kept imagining W beside me and I knew exactly what she'd say and how she'd react to certain things on TV. Made me miss her. I am still wearing my wedding ring - I took it off a fortnight or so ago but I put it back on. At present, it feels right to me to wear it still.
It feels like we have both detached from each other, though she has done it out of necessity because she wants D. I hardly hear from her now. When I texted her this week to confirm her share of the monthly bills for the house (they all come out of my account) she used to tell me when she'd paid me. Now she doesn't even tell me; I just found out she'd paid yesterday myself.
I'm sure next week will be better - just had the set back with confirmation of the decree nisi being processed.
Me - 36, W - 32 No kids T - 8 yr, M - 3 yr Discovery - 14 May 2019 S - 25 May 2019 & D bomb - 29 July 2019 D & House sale final - Feb 2020
