Thanks again people, really appreciate the support. Yes that's all emotional rollercoaster stuff, at my weakest moments I want to lash out , effect some change in the situation. So yes I may rant on here, I don't tend to act on it. Truth is I'm hurting, I love her deeply and selfishly just really miss her.
My brain does backflips wanting to know she still has some hope for us, love, affection etc etc
Just finding this really hard.
Went out last night and had a really good time, met some good fun people.
Sat in new flat today, weather is terrible, feeling really alone and down.
Resisting the temptation to make contact with her to fill the hole.
